Li never truly left the prison camp. He returns to it regularly in his sleep. Two dreams in particular keep coming back. In the first one, Li Yiwen is squatting on the floor. In his left hand, he holds a bowl of rice, in his right, a pair of chopsticks. His eyes are locked on the floor as a guard stands behind him counting down from 10. Once he reaches zero, he'll tear the food out of Li's hands. Li inhales as much hot rice as he possibly can. He can feel his esophagus burning, but he keeps shoveling.